Appointment with my future self!!
Do you at times feel lost? Like, there’s something missing? You’re breathing but not actually living? Like there’s something waiting for you, somewhere and there’s a fear that you may miss it. Fear of having regrets, looking back ten years down the line and realizing what you missed was there throughout in front of your eyes. Things always make sense in hindsight. What if there was a way to actually see it in the moment, like opportunities roaming around with signboards like “pick me, I am good for you”. But, then the whole “Future is subjective” concept will go to waste. I know, we are all outcome of the choices we make and having a tunnel vision will lock out all the other outcomes that we never knew existed. Still, at times I wish we could just see past all the fog and figure out the path. If I could just talk to my future self and discuss how we want us to shape. She would give me notes about Dos and Don’ts. That would be one hell of a meeting. Some part of my brain is convinced that my future self will be as clueless as my current self. And the usually matured part is advising me to not waste my time in thinking these things and focus on present. Clearly, the daydreamer is winning so, the result is this blog.
What do you think your future self will say to you, if given a chance? Where would that meeting be? Probably in a park, by a pond, looking over sunset. Or what if my future self is more of a corporate soul than nature lover and wants to have a board meeting, seems unlikely, but, can’t say much. Isn’t it strange, my future self is as much of a mystery as any stranger? I can pretend and say “No! That’s clearly not me. I would never do that.” But, that would be a subjective statement just like my future, and my past self is there to back this up. Standing in a corner, judging me like, “Yeah right bitch! You said you will never work in corporate, but look where we are. So think before you make a statement like that”.
Maybe, certain things are better left unexplored and to be figured out at the best moment. Or it’s just calming to tell myself that I’ll figure it out when the time is right and my future self, which would be present at that moment, will be proud of my present self, then past self, for making it on its own. This is the time where my philosophical part of the brain takes the light (Split reference, if you know what I mean) and decides to bless us with the knowledge of Destiny, and to have faith in the universe. I can clearly see my practical side shaking its head. Whatever the future may be or which part will win, I can say one thing for sure, one advice that they all would want me to follow is to be brave even more so at times when it’s the most difficult.
